Getting slightly bummed out. I am taking my sister-in-law’s facebook posts and putting them in order from oldest to newest. So far, I have been dealing with her posts from when she was feeling fine.
From July 2009 to December 2009, she was …feeling normal. She started getting sick on around December 31rst and wasn’t feeling good in general. Laryngitis, sore throats, headaches, exhaustion, body aches. It sucks to be reading these posts because she had no idea that she only had 10 months to live.
The day she died, I looked at her posts on Facebook. I couldn’t stand the thought of her face book page disappearing one day and more than 33,000 words being gone forever. That’s why I am compiling them. They are precious to me… WORDS are precious to me.
It’s just hard to read these newer posts because I know it’s all down hill from here. From January 2010 to May 2010, she felt sick every day, but didn’t know why. That’s the period I’m reading right now. When I’m finished, I’ll be glad I did it, but for now, I feel like I’m reliving it all over again.
I am sorry you’re feeling down and blue about the loss of Sunshine. What a great woman she was. I am so glad you and she reconnected when you did, otherwise you would be feeling worse right now. She will be in your heart and memory everyday, guiding you in your thoughts and the things you do. You may find yourself doing things for the better in your life, just by the way she touched your heart. What a blessing for everyone! Thank you for your Christmas card. I’ll be sending you one in the next couple of days with a picture of Caroline.
Love you, Cherie